Mummy and Daddy found out we were expecting you the 2nd week in december 2010 we were over the moon but scared at the same time as we lost your angel brother/sister in the october at 12 weeks, so happy but very apprehensive. Mummy felt sick all the time but loved every minute of it as it let her know you were growing, we saw you first at 9 weeks our little teddy bear moving and wriggling around, then at 13 weeks again you looked perfect and we finally thought this time we will get to take you home. Then at 18 weeks mummy and daddys world came crashing down my placenta wasnt working properly and because of that my darling girl you were small, they didnt hold out much hope but we wouldnt give up while your heart was beating and you were fighting so would we. They decided to admit me to hospital at 20 weeks and their I stayed having injections everyday and permantly on oxygen trying to get you bigger we knew we wouldnt make it further than 28 weeks and that you would be premature but we just prayed we got that far. Mummy remembers and always will what it felt like to feel you move we would have great chats me and you while I was lying in that hospital bed. You were so strong and you didnt give up we had regular growth scans and although you were still small you kept on growing. Then at 26 weeks the consultant told us while we were having the scan that the placenta was really starting to deterioate and panic set in, just get me through another 2 weeks I prayed, the doctors gave me steriods preparing for you to be born. You were really quiet that week which made me panic even more I would prod my belly and you would wiggle back giving me a huge sigh of relief. Then in your 27th week I hadnt felt you move all night the midwifes took me down for a scan and my darlin you had fallen asleep in mummys tummy. My world and Daddys came tumbling down and I felt numb, we then had to bring you into the world to say hello and goodbye. I will never as long as I live forget the silence that followed you being born it wasnt right and it wasnt fair you should have be crying! Then me and Daddy spent time with you lots of cuddles and photos and adrian came and blessed you it was as perfect as it could be. On the 27th of may we said goodbye finally Daddy carried you and all your aunties,uncles and grandparents where their to say goodbye. That brings me to now I visit you every other day and it brings me comfort but nothing will ever make it better sweetheart and a piece of my heart will always be missing xxxx