As time goes on darlin so does life and the blackness that I carried with me has slowly begun to lift, i even smile and laugh with daddy now and finally have started to feel peaceful. But with the smiles and laughter their comes this wave of guilt and emptiness that still creeps up and bites me on the bottom as I still miss u everyday and long for you to be with me.I wonder what you would have been doing now what new things you would be learning everyday I wish things were different I really do.I just had an erge to write to you today just to tell although I know you know that my love for you is endless and will never fade and although mummy and daddys life will move on you will be forever with me my beautiful baby girl, everytime I look at daddy I still see your tiny face and I know that will never change. I was so lucky to have you even if it was only for a little while xxxxxxxxxx