Charlottes due date is tommorow, and today I feel like my heart could break. I should be hloding you in my arms its just not fair tommorow me and alan are spending the day together we are going to release some balloons at her grave then spend the day relaxing and getting pampered. I always thought after tommorow we will move forward but I cant imagine that now its almost here. I cant imagine being happy, or moving on, or ever getting back normal. I miss her beyond words xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx